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  I feel so alone here...

  by Pams girl in

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  thanks to all who helped me escape my imminemt baptism after 6 years of study.

  it was a close call.. ive clearly been labelled spirituallly weak, as nobody has called here to say hi or anything and its been 2 monthes now....their divine justice for me i guess.

  i did see my study teacher a while back when she dropped off my memorial invite, and that was after a chat, nothing to do with the wbts...seemed like it was an afterthought on her part.. they all know about my problems with agoraphobia and panic.

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  THANK YOU ALL....WOW! Im so overwhelmed by your responses! I appreciate each and every one of them, truly, thank you so much x

  I have had agoraphobia and panic for 10 years, about a year after I qualified as a nurse. The JWs caught me just after I was sacked from my job and my friend died in a car accident. I was vulnerable.....you know the rest. I do think they made me worse really....I began not to trust anyone, and had no interest in making new friends who were worldly.....and then the cycle begin...trapped/safe? Never mind they said YOU HAVE US! yeah, right! Oh well.

  I am so grateful for you.

  I really thought I was taking a big risk posting this.......I thought Id get beaten down for being wimpy for some reason. Youve all made my day and cheered me up, and I will certainly take on board everything youve all had to say.

  THANK YOU for being there for me. I feel better for your kindness. xxxxxxxxxx

  MUCH LOVE xxxxxxxxx

  PAULA xxxxxxxx
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  Ok I left the WBTS..... now what?? kingdom hall withdrawal

  by sister x in

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  so my last meeting was in december 2010. i was attending the english and spanish halls for a year and just english for 6 yrs..... lots of meetings.

  i had only two friends at the hall and no boyfriend/husband.

  i live in a town where i know no one, no family and when i became a witness i left the one job (air force) where i had people who cared about me..... now im alllllll alone!

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  Pams girl

  Sister X, I feel alone and lost too, if its any consolation. I have found that getting to know the bible on your own terms helps. I have still only got the New Translation from the Jw, but I always concentrate on Matthew and Jesus words. It feels strange to me too that I cant gather together with others. Maybe the best way is to open your heart in prayer and let your heart guide you...your heart will never fail you. Build up your faith alone, and Im sure if its meant to be, you will find a place that fits you very well. I feel very dispondant too....dont give up. I wont. With you, Take Care.

  Paula x
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  I feel so alone here...

  by Pams girl in

  1. jw
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  thanks to all who helped me escape my imminemt baptism after 6 years of study.

  it was a close call.. ive clearly been labelled spirituallly weak, as nobody has called here to say hi or anything and its been 2 monthes now....their divine justice for me i guess.

  i did see my study teacher a while back when she dropped off my memorial invite, and that was after a chat, nothing to do with the wbts...seemed like it was an afterthought on her part.. they all know about my problems with agoraphobia and panic.

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  Pams girl

  Thanks to all who helped me escape my imminemt baptism after 6 years of study. It was a close call.

  Ive clearly been labelled spirituallly weak, as nobody has called here to say hi or anything and its been 2 monthes now....their divine justice for me I guess. I did see my study teacher a while back when she dropped off my memorial invite, and that was after a chat, nothing to do with the WBTS...seemed like it was an afterthought on her part.

  They all know about my problems with agoraphobia and panic. I was promised tapes from the hall, to keep me spiritually up to date........nowt. Nada, bugger all.

  I am ready to tell my "teacher" thats it for me next time she calls, I so despearately want it over with, wish she would hurry up.....

  They already successfully isolated me from my many good friends "wordly"...and some family. Now I feel like a boat bobbing around cast at sea....

  Ive lost all I had, and for what? Im worse off and more lonely than ever, I dont know what to do....

  How can I separate these feelings of anxiety and lonleyness without concentrating on the JW!?

  I want to be pro-active, its hard. I believe all this isolation is now their fault, Ive lost all the good friends I ever had, and its too much water under the bridge to say sorry and appologise, and I dont know where most of them are now.....

  Im so lonely.

  Im so upset today. I wish I was closer to some of you. I wish I could meet just one person and share.

  "Living in a shack in a one horse town, trying to get to heaven fore the sun goes down.........." "The Cult" "Lil' Devil"

  Im sorry for being so mony, Im not half as thick skinned as you all here, please dont hold it against me.

  Paula x
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  Hi from Andy from state of Montana, introduce myself

  by andys in

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  hi wanted to introduce myself, i wanted to intoduce myself once all the dust cleared more and i am thinking more clearly, in feb. 2011 is when i decided to leave jw, my way out of the organization has actually been since july of 2010 gradually over time i started to question the jw religion, in july of 2010 i was still living at home with my parents, my dad at the time told me he was going to force me to go to meetings but i started to drift out the other way it got to the point where my dad told me i had to eventually leave, in november of 2010 alot of things happened, i was finally able to find my own place, just at the right time i found a very good deal on a duplex for $350 a month something that i can easily afford even on low income, usually alot of places even where i live are around $600 a month, in alot of ways i just about nearly was homeless.. in feb. of 2011 is when i decided to read the book crisis of conscience, the very first night getting through 80 pages is when my blindfolds came off, i immediatley accepted christ as my savior, also in the process i did alot of extensive research, i did research on alot of mainstream religons, also jwfacts.com helped me out alot on where to go, i decided to check out the baptist church, everything was beyond what i expected, i am not afraid to walk into a different church to me its helping me heal all the pain that the jw religon has caused, also recently i got baptized and now am a born again christian.. .

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  Hi Andys, welcome aboard! So great you escaped the clutches of the cult and are living the real life now. You'll find lots of help and support here if you need it, stick around, we are a mixed bag, and all survivours in one way or another. Great to have you with us!

  Best wishes, PAULA x
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  What was your "aha" moment....

  by botchtowersociety in

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  ....that made you decide to leave the botchtower society?

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  Pams girl

  My aaaaaaahhhhhaaaa moment was finding this forum accidentaly, and reading my first thread about the UN and the library card fiasco.....changed my life and saved my ass from immenent baptism......phew!

  PAULA x
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  Tell your jw jokes here.

  by jean-luc picard in

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  Pams girl

  Jean-Luc I love your door knocker...I just coughed and peed!!!! Tooo0 funny!!!
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  If People Told you the JW's Would Change These Beliefs & Practices.....

  by flipper in

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  would you have believed it ?

  ( i give credit to the poster password protected for giving me the idea of this thread ) .. after exiting the witnesses in 2003 i have noticed many changes within the wt society which really surprised me but after analyzing the changes - they really have convinced me the wt society and jehovah's witnesses are a mind control cult intent on ruling people's lives.

  here are some i have noticed that have changed :.

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  Pams girl

  Hi Mr Flipper, the nicest and most curteous man on here (IMO!)

  It didnt matter if they held their hands up and publicly declared on National TV all the horrendous lies and cover-ups and docturine changes that have occured. In my mind, they have done irrapairable damage and caused unessecary death, family conflict, turmoil, mental issues and so on...unless the GB publicly stand up and declare they are not Gods only channel, accept Jesus as authority not 8 old gits in bethel, protect children, realise everyone has a chance to be saved not just them, and start being real Christians by helped everyone not just their own, then, and only then, would I even begin to contemplate with calm objectiveness anything they have to say. And after they were done, I still wouldnt believe them!

  Love, Paula x

  (sorry about the spelling, the wine and easter eggs have got the better of me!)
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  Society putting out "Want ads" in BOE letters

  by sir82 in

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  it seems the society has a severe enough shortage of help in some areas that it is asking for help thru all the us boes.. there is one recent letter circulating asking for volunteers who can work on a persian translation team to move to "britain".

  elders are to track down anyone who speaks persian & english, and ascertain their willinglness to move to bethel in london to help there.

  there's a bunch of the standard "in good standing" questions they are to ask, as well as immigration / citizenship / visa issues to work out.. also, they are looking for programmers who know silverlight & xaml to work on a project for software the rbcs are using.. .

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  BCK...send me your tapes and I will type the whole lot..gratis naturally!

  Paula x
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  Miracles For Sale

  by cofty in

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  new derren brown documentary this evening on channel 4 (uk) 9-10:30pm.

  his insights into human psychology is astonishing, some of his previous docs have been jaw-dropping.. "the entertainer investigates the reality behind america's faith-healing phenomenon, and chooses an unsuspecting member of the british public who is prepared to adopt the guise of a pastor.

  the selected person then tries to perform healing `miracles' in texas after six months of learning, in an experiment to see whether he will be accepted".

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  If I could post a link, Id by playing "Jesus he knows me" by Phill Collins right now........
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  Miracles For Sale

  by cofty in

  1. watchtower
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  new derren brown documentary this evening on channel 4 (uk) 9-10:30pm.

  his insights into human psychology is astonishing, some of his previous docs have been jaw-dropping.. "the entertainer investigates the reality behind america's faith-healing phenomenon, and chooses an unsuspecting member of the british public who is prepared to adopt the guise of a pastor.

  the selected person then tries to perform healing `miracles' in texas after six months of learning, in an experiment to see whether he will be accepted".

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  Pams girl

  I enjoyed it Cofty. Especially the face of Pastor Shaun as JC explained they were not healed, it was simply adrenaline. Some of the hidden camera stuff was good too....where the "pastor" knew peoples names and addresses because God told him, when all the time his wife was feeding him the info through a mike in his ear.......

  Ive enjoyed all Derrens programes...enigma was especially good.

  Paula